i think i still like marcus.. wanted to forget but it seems so hard and impossible.. being with him has become a dream that will never come true.. i cried non-stop while i was in the train on the way to meet rj they all yesterday.. i treated him like invisible..i know i shouldn't do that and i know i'm sort made him guilty.. i'm sorry, i dun have that intention to make you feel guilty.. "i'm not supposed to love you, i'm not suppose to care, i'm not suppose to live my life wishing you were there. i'm not suppose to wonder where are you or what you do. i'm sorry, i can't help loving you"