some day... i will..

Friday, February 24, 2006

well.. i thought everything has vanish.. i love.. i dun love... i love... i dun love... it seem so blur to me... after so many weeks i still thought of him.. i thought i could get over very quickly after all we did not started.. love but have to pretend that i dun care.. recently then get to read his blog... i very long never contact him already.. is he alright? happy? sad? he already make it very clear to me that we're impossible but why am i still......loving him? i miss him. i miss him very much. i tried not to think of him in order to forget but... i still dream of him a lot... most of the time i woke up in tears... becca wong!!!!!!!!! wake up... there are better guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i lost to nelson... have to treat him abalone.. this bet came about cos i always say that i will not cry for marcus but in the end i will still end up crying de... i really ren for many times.. until one night when jiao told mi all the unhappy things between she and nic then while telling her how fortunate she is compared to mi... i cried... i had came out a list of songs that will remind mi of him... (1) dang ni (2) ming tian jian (3) happy ending (4) behind these hazel eyes (5) until i get over you (6) mei you ni de mei yi tian (7) gui ji (8) ge jian (9) i drive myself crazy-i told him before that whenever i listen to this song i will think of him.. till now.. i still dun have the courage to listen or to sing it again.. (10) wo zhi xiang yao (11) hao ai ta hao xiang ta (12) on my way (13) di yi ci ai de ren and the last song... (14) bu zuo ni de peng you-the lyric is wat i wanna tell him... hai i dunno la...

end of my day (: 4:19 PM