Sunday, July 30, 2006
i dunno wat i'm doing lately
really dunno
well nevermind
din update my blog lately cos has been home late
haiz..
wat am i doing??
ha ha ha ha!!!!
i simply love my poly classmates
i really had a lot of fun with them
i spent so much time with them that i nv meet with a lot of ppl
shit!
i'm going to fail all my quiz
i'll be dead!!!
i will retain..
=(
i'm being played
i guess
i think so
maybe you still have feelings for mi
but
i juz feel like i'm being played
haiz
i'm so dumb
i dunno wat i'm doing..
i will have better guys right??
really dunno
well nevermind
din update my blog lately cos has been home late
haiz..
wat am i doing??
ha ha ha ha!!!!
i simply love my poly classmates
i really had a lot of fun with them
i spent so much time with them that i nv meet with a lot of ppl
shit!
i'm going to fail all my quiz
i'll be dead!!!
i will retain..
=(
i'm being played
i guess
i think so
maybe you still have feelings for mi
but
i juz feel like i'm being played
haiz
i'm so dumb
i dunno wat i'm doing..
i will have better guys right??
end of my day (: 4:15 PM
Sunday, July 23, 2006
haha..
mich,zheng long and weekeat came to my house
i had fun
zheng long came over to help us with EPT
we played with the hair curler(dunno the actual name)
watch tv together
play with isqueez
i show them all the photos i had
shocked... somebody message mi out of the blue
asking mi whether i need any help
ermm.... i dunno how to treat you.. i dun care anymore
i had fun with my frens now.. i dun have to worry so much as before
i miss choral singing
i will be going for TKD training soon..
wahahaha
shocking ba... LOL
mich,zheng long and weekeat came to my house
i had fun
zheng long came over to help us with EPT
we played with the hair curler(dunno the actual name)
watch tv together
play with isqueez
i show them all the photos i had
shocked... somebody message mi out of the blue
asking mi whether i need any help
ermm.... i dunno how to treat you.. i dun care anymore
i had fun with my frens now.. i dun have to worry so much as before
i miss choral singing
i will be going for TKD training soon..
wahahaha
shocking ba... LOL
end of my day (: 8:51 PM
one week..
in an eye blink.. one week has gone
the buddhist believe that the spirit of the dead will come back on the seventh day
yesterday was the seventh day of my dad's death
my mum prepared food such as...
dim sum, cream cracker, rice, shao ya(duck), shao ruo(crispy pork) and chao siew(pork).. they are cut into to different sizes some are big and some small... like those we usually had outside..
though i dun really believe it.. but i know if he is really back he would like to have the chocolate cookies
so i put in the chocolate cookies for my dad (i prepared 2 types of cookie one was wat he requested before he left and the other was wat he had bought )
we also prepared drinks like coke,plain water and milo
a pen, a piece of paper and numbers
my mum told mi that the 40 numbers are put in line of 10(straightly in line)
all windows, fans and door were close
the wasn't much moving air
all of us were in the master bedroom
my sister, my mum and my maid
my mum shouldn't sleep at all..
both the maid and my sister were sound asleep except my mum and i
we were watching tv
usually my mum would be very tired or asleep by 23:45 but she wasn't last night
my mum knows that i was tired hence she accompany mi to sleep
my mum and i was sleeping on the master bed while my sister and my maid sleeps on the mattress
i woke up and 3 plus realizing my mum is still awake
as i was too tired i continued sleeping but i remember i did talk to my mum asking her to sleep
at 7.. my mum woke mi up
"xueling! xueling! qi lai! qi lai!" meaning wake up! wake up!
i went out to look at the food that my mum had prepared..
the scary part was...
2 pieces of shao ya and 1 piece of chao siew was on the table
it was on the plate initially!
one of the prawn dumpling(dim sum) was placed differently
it has been moved!
the milo cup have sign of it has been drank
some of the numbers in line has been moved
the pen has dropped
the chocolate cookies that he requested before he left turns soggy while the other type didn't(it was still solid)
so scary huh??!!!
BUT! i told my mum it might be the lizards, the ants etc etc..
but she said that there wasn't any ants
so i said its the lizard
but she said the 2 shao ya are too big to be moved by the lizards..
think abt quite true..
but my mum dun believe that the lizards will do such thing
she thinks that its my dad and the niu tuo ma mian
but i dun really believe in such thing
i still believe its the lizard that move the food
after all the discussions
my maid start clearing the stuff
and guess wat!!!!!
there was really a small lizard hiding under the plate
but its a baby lizard
i told my mum i was right
but she said the lizard is really too small to move the food
so i said it could be the mother lizard helped the baby lizard to pull out the shao ya and the chao siew
they end up laughing at mi
true wat!!
thats the only way to explain it( i'm a christian.. i dun believe in these(the niu tuo ma mian etc etc but i will respect it)
after my maid finish clearing my mum told mi that last night when all of us in the room at abt 23:50 plus she could smell a very strong smell of shao ya.. but i couldn't
none of us smell it except for her...
she was imagining things?? my dad was back??
i really dunno
but i couldn't explain the milo, the numbers and the cookies( there wasn't strong wind really!)
but my mum and i decided to do an experiment tonight on the cookies
thank-you people
really very thankful for all the care and concern you guys had gave
deeply appreciated
couldn't have known wat to do without you guys
there is sooo many people that i wanna thank
va,marcus,rj,mau,nel,zp,geo,misstan,ade,wk,zl,mich,syaza,runting,john,
xj,auntybeebee,churchmates,qy,eileen,weiting,colleagues,
etc etc.. sorry if i had missed out some of the ppl
you guys really give mi a lot of strength to move on
i'm better.. really very much better
i never cry for 3 days already
like wat some of them had told mi
there is no point crying
crying won't bring him back
my dad wouldn't wan to see us like this
i cried the most on the day he left and on the last day of funeral
so many things had happened
haiz.. i shall concentrate on the studies now
*sign* quiz is on next week.. i really can't catch up all the things i had missed
now i have lost all the guys in my life
in an eye blink.. one week has gone
the buddhist believe that the spirit of the dead will come back on the seventh day
yesterday was the seventh day of my dad's death
my mum prepared food such as...
dim sum, cream cracker, rice, shao ya(duck), shao ruo(crispy pork) and chao siew(pork).. they are cut into to different sizes some are big and some small... like those we usually had outside..
though i dun really believe it.. but i know if he is really back he would like to have the chocolate cookies
so i put in the chocolate cookies for my dad (i prepared 2 types of cookie one was wat he requested before he left and the other was wat he had bought )
we also prepared drinks like coke,plain water and milo
a pen, a piece of paper and numbers
my mum told mi that the 40 numbers are put in line of 10(straightly in line)
all windows, fans and door were close
the wasn't much moving air
all of us were in the master bedroom
my sister, my mum and my maid
my mum shouldn't sleep at all..
both the maid and my sister were sound asleep except my mum and i
we were watching tv
usually my mum would be very tired or asleep by 23:45 but she wasn't last night
my mum knows that i was tired hence she accompany mi to sleep
my mum and i was sleeping on the master bed while my sister and my maid sleeps on the mattress
i woke up and 3 plus realizing my mum is still awake
as i was too tired i continued sleeping but i remember i did talk to my mum asking her to sleep
at 7.. my mum woke mi up
"xueling! xueling! qi lai! qi lai!" meaning wake up! wake up!
i went out to look at the food that my mum had prepared..
the scary part was...
2 pieces of shao ya and 1 piece of chao siew was on the table
it was on the plate initially!
one of the prawn dumpling(dim sum) was placed differently
it has been moved!
the milo cup have sign of it has been drank
some of the numbers in line has been moved
the pen has dropped
the chocolate cookies that he requested before he left turns soggy while the other type didn't(it was still solid)
so scary huh??!!!
BUT! i told my mum it might be the lizards, the ants etc etc..
but she said that there wasn't any ants
so i said its the lizard
but she said the 2 shao ya are too big to be moved by the lizards..
think abt quite true..
but my mum dun believe that the lizards will do such thing
she thinks that its my dad and the niu tuo ma mian
but i dun really believe in such thing
i still believe its the lizard that move the food
after all the discussions
my maid start clearing the stuff
and guess wat!!!!!
there was really a small lizard hiding under the plate
but its a baby lizard
i told my mum i was right
but she said the lizard is really too small to move the food
so i said it could be the mother lizard helped the baby lizard to pull out the shao ya and the chao siew
they end up laughing at mi
true wat!!
thats the only way to explain it( i'm a christian.. i dun believe in these(the niu tuo ma mian etc etc but i will respect it)
after my maid finish clearing my mum told mi that last night when all of us in the room at abt 23:50 plus she could smell a very strong smell of shao ya.. but i couldn't
none of us smell it except for her...
she was imagining things?? my dad was back??
i really dunno
but i couldn't explain the milo, the numbers and the cookies( there wasn't strong wind really!)
but my mum and i decided to do an experiment tonight on the cookies
thank-you people
really very thankful for all the care and concern you guys had gave
deeply appreciated
couldn't have known wat to do without you guys
there is sooo many people that i wanna thank
va,marcus,rj,mau,nel,zp,geo,misstan,ade,wk,zl,mich,syaza,runting,john,
xj,auntybeebee,churchmates,qy,eileen,weiting,colleagues,
etc etc.. sorry if i had missed out some of the ppl
you guys really give mi a lot of strength to move on
i'm better.. really very much better
i never cry for 3 days already
like wat some of them had told mi
there is no point crying
crying won't bring him back
my dad wouldn't wan to see us like this
i cried the most on the day he left and on the last day of funeral
so many things had happened
haiz.. i shall concentrate on the studies now
*sign* quiz is on next week.. i really can't catch up all the things i had missed
now i have lost all the guys in my life
end of my day (: 12:36 AM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
i never expect it
i never
you told mi that you will be able to see mi married
you said you wanna play with my kids..
i miss you
i love you
its all my fault
if i had check on you earlier
if i did not hesitate to call 995
i should have give you two chocolate cookies instead of one
u told mi you will recover soon
you was arguing with mi
you were so energetic then
all this happen only within an hour
this is too fast
i can't take it
tell mi its not true
daddy.. i miss you
i never
you told mi that you will be able to see mi married
you said you wanna play with my kids..
i miss you
i love you
its all my fault
if i had check on you earlier
if i did not hesitate to call 995
i should have give you two chocolate cookies instead of one
u told mi you will recover soon
you was arguing with mi
you were so energetic then
all this happen only within an hour
this is too fast
i can't take it
tell mi its not true
daddy.. i miss you
end of my day (: 10:52 AM
Friday, July 14, 2006
erm... its time to face the fact..
i'm having fanancial problem..
due to my dad's medical bill
juz the operation and staying in the hospital
has cost abt 17k.. real singapore dollar..
not maple meso..
well.. its ok.. money can be earned..
i will to work from now on
every wed,fri and sunday
wed and fri.. 5-11 then sunday 10-10..
scary huh~
well no choice.. at first i only wanted to work on
sunday and wednesday but yati said there is a new regulation
saying have to work at least 3 times per week
urghh... this nonsense
i wish i can get better job..
haiz... nvm..
had a great time today in sch..
*dun wish to talk abt wat happened in the early morning*
i had fun during CKT and the break before maths
sooooooo fun
joking with runting side burn..(i dunno whether is this 'burn')
as wk said it looked like it is blued on.. it looked fake
lol.. so funny.. i love hanging out with them!
erm...
syaza... i think you have to work on tuning.. LOL
bad syaza.. trying to make mi fall in LT.. lol... i'm fast ok.. manage to balance myself.. LOL
wk... sooo bad.. supported syaza evil act
i'm watching the both of you
i love my friends! i love all of them!
i'm having fanancial problem..
due to my dad's medical bill
juz the operation and staying in the hospital
has cost abt 17k.. real singapore dollar..
not maple meso..
well.. its ok.. money can be earned..
i will to work from now on
every wed,fri and sunday
wed and fri.. 5-11 then sunday 10-10..
scary huh~
well no choice.. at first i only wanted to work on
sunday and wednesday but yati said there is a new regulation
saying have to work at least 3 times per week
urghh... this nonsense
i wish i can get better job..
haiz... nvm..
had a great time today in sch..
*dun wish to talk abt wat happened in the early morning*
i had fun during CKT and the break before maths
sooooooo fun
joking with runting side burn..(i dunno whether is this 'burn')
as wk said it looked like it is blued on.. it looked fake
lol.. so funny.. i love hanging out with them!
erm...
syaza... i think you have to work on tuning.. LOL
bad syaza.. trying to make mi fall in LT.. lol... i'm fast ok.. manage to balance myself.. LOL
wk... sooo bad.. supported syaza evil act
i'm watching the both of you
i love my friends! i love all of them!
end of my day (: 7:28 PM
Thursday, July 13, 2006
a bit sad lately
i dunno why
i wanna take a break from this world
i hope i can take 2 weeks mc then stay at home and rest
sleep.. watch tv... play..
**which is totally impossible**
finally i see your true colour
i was a fool
well.. i'm very clear wat i'm doing now
i will avoid you from now on
as far as possible i dun wanna see you..
i won't wanna study with you anymore
i will still talk to you BUT onli on studies
but it will be better if i dun talk to you at all
being ai mei/''flirting'' with mi when you have other ppl in mind
WAT??!! playing with me??
dun tell mi you dunno whether you have feelings for mi or not
i dun wanna be with someone like you
i'm not going to listen to watever you said..
thank God.. i did not start the relationship with you
6 more weeks to exam.. i wanna do well
i dun wanna be separated with the class
guess my classmates dun wish to lose mi too
i mean i'm such a nice person.. LOL...
ok la.. i was being thick skin..
i dunno why
i wanna take a break from this world
i hope i can take 2 weeks mc then stay at home and rest
sleep.. watch tv... play..
**which is totally impossible**
finally i see your true colour
i was a fool
well.. i'm very clear wat i'm doing now
i will avoid you from now on
as far as possible i dun wanna see you..
i won't wanna study with you anymore
i will still talk to you BUT onli on studies
but it will be better if i dun talk to you at all
being ai mei/''flirting'' with mi when you have other ppl in mind
WAT??!! playing with me??
dun tell mi you dunno whether you have feelings for mi or not
i dun wanna be with someone like you
i'm not going to listen to watever you said..
thank God.. i did not start the relationship with you
6 more weeks to exam.. i wanna do well
i dun wanna be separated with the class
guess my classmates dun wish to lose mi too
i mean i'm such a nice person.. LOL...
ok la.. i was being thick skin..
end of my day (: 11:38 PM
Sunday, July 09, 2006
-i had been sick since tuesday..
-had been coughing non-stop
-skip lecture on friday
-went home to sleep
-this whole week sucks
-bored
am i really close to the guys in the class?
*those in " " is wat he said.. those in - is my thoughts
"you're so close to them, if you really like someone you shouldn't be close to them"
"you message (somebody) then the both of you smile smile at one another, i saw!"
-the way you said seems like i'm flirting with them/him
"the way you talked to mi make mi so pak cek, others can stand you but i can't! "
"talking to you make mi very miserable"
-i'm so hurt after hearing this..
haiz... wat have i done?
i'm like always in the wrong
though many ppl feels that he is the one who is problematic
but some how or rather his words hurt mi
i'm thankful that you still have feelings for mi
though you didn't wan to say it out
i thought we could start but now i think
its impossible
i had enough..
after so many
replies of dunno, not sure, maybe, not sure either, orh, ok,=.= from you
and after talking to you, you seemed bo-chap
i think......... there is nothing left to say but good-bye..
-had been coughing non-stop
-skip lecture on friday
-went home to sleep
-this whole week sucks
-bored
am i really close to the guys in the class?
*those in " " is wat he said.. those in - is my thoughts
"you're so close to them, if you really like someone you shouldn't be close to them"
"you message (somebody) then the both of you smile smile at one another, i saw!"
-the way you said seems like i'm flirting with them/him
"the way you talked to mi make mi so pak cek, others can stand you but i can't! "
"talking to you make mi very miserable"
-i'm so hurt after hearing this..
haiz... wat have i done?
i'm like always in the wrong
though many ppl feels that he is the one who is problematic
but some how or rather his words hurt mi
i'm thankful that you still have feelings for mi
though you didn't wan to say it out
i thought we could start but now i think
its impossible
i had enough..
after so many
replies of dunno, not sure, maybe, not sure either, orh, ok,=.= from you
and after talking to you, you seemed bo-chap
i think......... there is nothing left to say but good-bye..
end of my day (: 10:58 AM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
but if you wan it to be this way i will respect you
DUN SAY I BO-CHAP, I TALKED TO YOU.. YOU CHOOSE TO BE RUDE TO MI.
YOU ALWAYS TELL MI NOT TO BE RUDE. LOOK WHO IS THE ONE BEING RUDE??!!
SNATCHING THE PAPER AWAY AND STARING AT MI.. WOW.. YOU'RE SOOOOOO WELL MANNERED!
*LAUGH OUT LOUD*
you are the first ever ''fren'' that make mi so pissed off
i uses ''fren'' cos you're the one who dun regard mi as friends.. since thats the case
why should i give you face??!!
i'm a forgive and forget person
but i have to think twice when it comes to you..
i really dunno wat you wan
from term break till last friday.. practically everyday you could call
talk on the phone.. topic on studies, what i'm doing, pushing mi to other guys etc etc
saturday: went to study with you.. had dinner together.. a little window shop.. walked around bugis.. treat mi with ice-cream(quite an expensive ice-cream), *everything was so good*
sunday: raised your voice at mi
monday: treated mi as invisible.. i was talking to the air and carbon dioxide.. pass you your paper, snatching it away and staring at mi..
WAT DO YOU WAN???
i repeat myself i dun deserved to be treated like this!
you told mi on saturday of all the ppl you know
i'm the onli one you treat it this way
*if becos you like mi hence you're treating mi this way.. let mi tell you
HELLO.. its not the way to like a person*
watever it is i dun like it!
YOU ARE AFFECTING MY LIFE
i seriously dunno why i like you..
i'm nuts
you're soooooooooooo different from the ******
i admit when you are alone with mi you treat mi extremely good
but... i dunno why you change sooo much when we're with the grp
i always tell myself not to bother abt you cos you had choose not to talk to mi anymore
but....haiz
all i can say is i'm tooooo xin luan
i cant bear to see this happening
i mean you left the grp
you went stick on to another ppl
isolate from us
dun talk to us
walked off when the rest are still eating
!@#$
ask you why you did this
'cos there is no need to'
why are you treating mi like this?
'dunno"
still wanna be friends?
'dunno'
wth!
you dun have a brain to think is it??
i hope i manage to talk some sense to you last night
i dun wan it to be like this but.............
dunno la
dun care anymore
i will onli focus on my studies now
sunday was my dearest nephew's birthday..
i took some pictures.. lets look at it..
we had buffet.. yummy
lol
the food was GOOD!
envy?
lol
i will update more pictures soon
lol
=)
end of my day (: 12:49 AM
