Yeah!
i found that song! ghost of you and me.. =)

i got full marks for my section A maths paper!
though i didn't touch section C at all..
but section A is upon 48..
will pass my maths! but i wont score.. ='(

left with edevice and Dfun..
gonna study from 9-5 tml in school
jia you!! jiao you!! jiao you!!
going to bring my "love letters" to sch to eat..
i've 3 bottle at home.. (eat till siao!)
going my cup noodle too =P

i had fun today..
when to play study with nelson
change like three places
from inside the mac to outside the mac
then to the void deck
but in the end also nv study.. =X
nelson was super funny..
his sense of humor like getting worst better..
LOL

before going to the void deck he told me that he wanted to go toilet
so we went to the nearest coffee shop..
he entered through exit A so i waited outside exit A
i was waiting... waiting... waiting..
i thought he was having some......... "big business" so i didnt bother and continue waiting
waited super long for him
then after abt 10-15 minutes later then i got a call from him
then i realise all along he was waiting at exit D
he thought i was in the toilet hence he continue waiting..
he went on saying "i thought you were peeing then bu fang bian to pick up my call"

well done nelson!!!
entered through exit A of cos waiting for you there la!
-__________-

there is really no cure for stupidity..
nelson has proven that..
=P LOL

we went to the playground at abt 11pm cos we got chase off from the mac
played swing, monkey bar and merry go round..
sooooo fun!!!
i nearly fell down from the merry go round..
haha..
going to bed le.. or april gonna study alone in the morning..

i wish i had all the time in the world doing the things that i like..

finally!
i know the name of the song that i'm looking for..
if anyone of you have it please send it to me!
thanks!!!

song name: ghost of you and me

if i never remember wrongly the song is quite old already..
i dunno where to download.. haha..
here is the MTV...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IsjXtzRTxPA

i'm ok =)
i really do

i've gone through so much things
i woke up and cry that morning cos i thought of all the things that i'm going through/gone through.
marcus thingy was ONE of it
i was angry, sad and lost when i know the truth
imagine u were the last to know
plus i only know it 2 years later
all of you know except for me,
its pathetic
thats what i'm sad over

i know you all don't wan me to get hurt
but i think its more hurting for me to find out myself 2 years later
well nevermind, its over =)
(i know most of you will think that i'm putting the smiling face cos i wan to fake that "i'm ok" but seriously after going through so much things, u will know that this is nothing. i'm stronger than before)


to va
thank-you for the post =)
i no longer think that he is the one
he may be good in some ways but i've seen better guys, serious
i know both of you are just friends
(you so funny la! that part make me laugh a little)
thank-you for all the things that you've done
(i'm loving you more and more each day! =) )

to jiao
i'm sorry if i sounded rude on msn.
i know u will forgive me de.. =P
anyway i've a lot to settle with you,
i hope u know wat i meant
(juz in case you really dunno wat i mean---> our friendship)

to marcus
i no longer waiting for you
i've got over it
i know you MIGHT feel guilty for making me wait then no returns
honestly i never regret loving you i was really happy that time
i know you will get to read this..
dun feel weird facing me

**my 6th sense tells me that nic, nel and zp will be asking jiao wat happened**


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i think i lost my ezlink card again..
i think i left it at my aunt's house
to make a new one will cost me $20 dollar with no value in it

wat i can do with the $20
i can play like average 10 hours of dota
20 rounds of pool in TP
4 slices of thousand leaves from coffee bean( the last thing i ate yesterday)
$20 worth of things that i like..

if i really lost it i'm not going make another one..
not even one year and i've lost it twice..
careless me!

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thought i would wake up at abt 9 plus
but zheng long's message woke me up.. (that was when i saw va's message)
he say he cant sleep.. -_________-
he always say that he may be 18-19 physically but actually he has the age of 200

i'm going back to sch to look for my maths lecturer
having maths paper tml
hai.. i still dun have the exam mood..
think i'll do badly this time..

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眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰又是晴天
juz when i'm losing faith... you made me move on =)

i didn't sleep well..
had been thinking of same thing over and over again..
eversince i'm poly i had never wake up at 6am

weekeat said..
"you like to use 'i dunno'.."
cos i really dunno wat to do..

God, have you forgotten about me?

i hope there is a creation that helps to get rid of the unhappy memories..
its so hard to forget certain things in life
psychology students would know why
there is so many methods that will "remind" you..
or maybe having repression
so that i can push all the unpleasant impules to the unconscious

watched a few MTV..
some really made me cry..
this is one of them..



i was watching the MTV of breathing by lifehouse
i'm loving that song more and more each day..
wanted to it on blog but there was so many version..
so i decided to watch some of it

the different versions
1. original
2. robin hood
3. final fantasy VII advent children
4. harry potter
5. the notebook(wanna watch this movie duing the holiday but i think i will cry like hell)
6. other anime versions

in the end i still post the original one.. though the video quite lame..
have to suppose original!! lol =x
the harry potter, FF VII and notebook version is nice
here is the song!

i killed nelson today during dota
three cheers and three cheers and three cheers for becca!
hip hip horray!
hip hip horray!
hip hip.. HORRAY!!!
haha
i used crystal maiden..

was pretty sad a while ago..
not going to blog it here
haha i blog it in another blog..
FIND IT IF YOU CAN!!
lol
not a lot of ppl i can turn to when i'm down..
afterall so many things had happened..
nevermind, life still have to move on..
somebody said.. “旧的不去新的不來”
**thank-you =), without you i might still be crying**
you know who you're =)

no point moaning over it..
jia you ba becca!!
u can get over it!

went studying with nelson
did maths..
left east point to zp's house..
asked marcus along.. suprisingly he was free..
played ma jiang and daidee..
left for dota at about 1945..
plyed for an hour and headed home..

holidays are coming!!
laos! i'm coming!!

hate all those cockroaches..
dun make me use the "f" word on you all..
f......................ry you all then u know



read properly i type "fry"..
alright i know its dumb but who cares!
this is my blog.
i wanna be lame i wanna zi high~
lol

good night to everybody..
hoping for a better tomorrow =)

i thought i dun have to come back to sch today..
ade called in the morning
"becca, wanna do psy quiz today?"
i woke up instantly..
psy quiz due on 18th
my comp is down.
no choice have to come back to sch..

had been listening to lifehouse-breathing..
love this song a lot!!especially the part in red.
trying to put this song on blog..
but the sch comp i'm using now super lag..
here is the lyric.. =)


I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace

**I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

(repeat ** x 1)

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the straps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now


(repeat ** x 2)

was packing my stuff when i saw the draft of a letter i wrote
before 2004's valentine's day..
haha.. in an eye blink 3 years has gone..
time flies~

mon~gave out the cookies that i'v made..
hope they like it =)
lesson for today super slack!
i like it! lol..

saw marcus in tp..
so weird~ he sould be in the jungle.. not tp..
haha
(you still owe me sakae sushi buffet! dun you try running it away!)

went library to study =)

tue~
dfund tutorial nv do anything (mark attendance and go =D)
lab! the teacher praise me!! he liked my attitute!!
had KFC for dinner(so dead, shouldn't be eating it!)

wed~
HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!

wat did i get from this v's day..
brownie from syaza
lolipop from wicked
chocolates from my CDS classmates..
a kiss from johnny on my hand
a kiss from derrick on my hand
lol! (derrick asked me not to wash my hand.. LOL.. the first thing i did was washing my hand =X)
and lots of thank-you from a lot of peeps..

how careless can i get..
left my phone at home..
forgotten where my class is..
i asked a stranger to lend me his phone to make a call
thank him for that..
THANK-YOU STRANGER! =D

I'm going to laos!!

i'm selected for the OCP!!

oversea community project..

HORRAY!! =)

i'm at kenedict's house!! celebrate his 19th birthday
though his birthday is on the 14th feb..
ah haha but i think he wanna spend the special day with his gf than us..
LOL
saw some exclassmates of mine but not all..
will update the pictures soon.. =)

psps presentation ----> mon
psychology presentation--->wed(v's day)
psychology quiz due date--->18th feb(CNY)
chinese new year--->18th feb
maths exam--->23th feb
edevice exam--->26th feb
dfund exam --->27th feb

sianzzzzzzzzzzzz..
i haven't finish clearing my room..
no time to study too.. hAIZzz

raziz told me that there was a ppt slide for 05' sec 5..
done by sufiyana's gang..
i was shock to see my picture inside..
lol!
i'm going to do one for my class too =)


made something for all the special ones..
something small.. hope they will like it..
=)

i had a "GOOD" start of the week!

did my project till 4am on sun,thought its gonna be fun the next day cos its presentation. never thought that the computers in the school cant open my file. some classmates were really nice "wow~ wat a good way to escape!" though i know they were joking but it still hurt my feelings. trying to act as though i'm fine but i juz cant control my tears.. all the hard work that yong mei and i had put in had gone down to the drain.. **so sorry yong mei**
oh.. wanna thank boon sin(bringing me to bus lab to try out) and jia zheng(lending me her lappy to try out) =)

whatever it is.. its over! ^^ **thank-you teacher for allowing me to do the presentation on monday =)**

PCBD lab test.. i cant finish it.. sianz.. if i'm able to get a pass for it i'll be damn happy.. **praying hard for that and java** =)

went for the briefing for OCP (oversea community project) hopefully i can get in.. **Praying hard**

TP has been miss calling me, tried calling back but it will goes to.. "Thank-you for calling temasek poly, for course enquiry pl....." so all i could do was to wait for their call.. FINALLY! i got the call today..
the operator said "i'm calling from SAA, We are unable to find your study record in TP......." LOL
then i replied "i'm having java lesson now, the teacher has my name in the attendance.. i'm from TP.." she asked for my matrix card number a couple of times (to double check i even said it like 4 times) but they still unable to find my data.. then i suggested giving my admin no. they suddenly she said "Oh! i find your data. sometimes the form said matrix no. mean admin no. " -________-

it did scare me a little.. afterall other schools has been calling me, asking me to go for their open house and condsider their school.. i'm like "homeless" lOl..

thank God the week is coming to an end =)
East coast visit is tml!!!
will be going there late cos of lecture..
hopefully i won't get lost.. haha =X

plan for the sat and sun..
sat--> go elias/school library to study
sun--> swimming at nel's house
study a little
go for kenedict's birthday

gonna make something for all my love ones for valentine's day.. =)

i did it three years ago, i'm doing it again.. avoid

what i will do when I'm down..
cry, sleep, talk to someone and meeting up with people that will make me smile again =)